Addicted to Books, Coffee, and Cigarettes

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Decisions.....decisions...
So I have actually made up my mind where I will spend the next year of my life: CHICAGO! I came through here on my massive road trip and stayed with my best friend from college--we had an incredible time, but I just wasn't feeling that spark of connectedness...so I moved on to PA, NC, AL, and TN before settling in Chicago...

Frankly, I am scared to death. I have never lived in a big city before--it's so fast and noisy...and everyone honks like maniacs if you actually stop at a stop sign....it's like an unwritten rule that you are supposed to roll through them...who knew? Anyway, I felt like this was the best option for what I want to do---I would love, love, love to work with books (publishing, editing, advertising...) but I don't want to live in New York....so I felt like this is where there is the most opportunity for me to actually get to do what I want...

However--right now, I am forced to go through a temp agency---I really need to start work immediately and that was the quickest way I could think of to get a job...so I have suddenly morphed into professional secretary girl...noone knows my secret yet: I am totally unorganized and I hate running errands for people. But I'm not saying a word!

So--do you have any idea how fucking hot it is here in the summer??? It's at least 5 million degrees---today I walked all over down town just checking things out...and after about 4 minutes, I was drenched in sweat...seriously, it was running all the way down my back and pooling in the band of my bra...it was disgusting.

OK, ok. My ex-boyfriend says that I am way too negative, and only talk about the things that go wrong in my life, so I am turning over a new leaf. Here goes.

Good things about today:
1. I totally rocked my interview!
2. Apparently, I am an "advanced" windows, excel, and powerpoint user and have perfect
grammar.
3. I did not get lost in the city at all today!
4. I bought the coolest pair of blue shoes and two purses that made me drool.
5. I ate Costa Rican food for lunch and Greek food for dinner...
6. I rented the cutest apartment in the world!

That's right, I found an apartment today--I get to move in on Monday! It is two bedrooms in a great neighborhood with hard wood floors in the kitchen and wine colored carpeting in the den. It has a huge indoor deck---which is like a sunroom, I guess...It has the sweetest arches over the door and plenty of windows! I love it! It is costing an arm and a leg, but hopefully, I will be getting a roomie soon, soon, soon!

Anyway--things are going well, I'd say. I don't feel nearly as apprehensive as I did last week. However, I am still scared to death of parallel parking and I don't know if I will ever keep the map of Chicago streets in my head.

I am happy.
Today anyway.
Tomorrow is always a different story!

until then--A

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Gallup, NM to Denver, CO to Spencer, IA to Chicago, IL to Phoenixville, PA to ...

Two weeks ago, I set out on a road trip to find a new life. I left all of my belongings in a 10X10 storage unit, piled my clothes in the car, put on a Beck CD, and hit the road. I had no destination and no plan for the future. Don't get me wrong--it's not that I didn't want a plan, it's just that a plan never worked out...I must have applied for 40 different jobs and researched 4 different cities where I wanted to live. Nothing was pulling me in any one direction. I felt totally rootless and fickle; to sum it up, I felt like a really big loser. I can't say that I'm feeling much better about myself today--I still don't have a job or a place to live--but seeing all of my old friends reminded me that there are people out there who care about me and don't want to see me starving in a gutter somewhere...that was comforting.

While winding my way across the country, I discovered several things: you cannot find a book-on-tape anywhere in the state of Ohio; male drivers cannot stand to let female drivers pass them on the highway; people stare at you when you are trying to change clothes while driving; and, more often than not, mapquest does not give you the right directions.

Despite these difficulties, I am currently having fun with my friends in Phoenixville, PA. It seems like it is in the middle of nowhere, but apparently, it's within commuting distance of Philly--so there is actually stuff to do here...there's even a Nordstrom's Rack with tons of fabulous discounted shoes! Anyway, tomorrow I think I'm going to drive down to North Carolina or thereabouts...then it's on to B'ham AL to visit my family...

After that, I must decide where to put my Civic to rest and live the life of an upstanding, tax-paying citizen without being "stifled by dryrot" (Credo by Jack London).

Until then,
--adm