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Tuesday, August 09, 2005

The Bitch Cometh

I don't know what has gotten into me lately, but I have been a total bitch. I have not been nice to my man--when he has been nothing but fabulous.

I think all of this stems from not having a job--I am temping--but I hate not knowing what will happen when my placement is over. I haven't even gotten a real interview yet. Tonight, I have to go interview at Barnes and Noble to see if I'm worthy enough to work as a bookseller/cashier. I don't know if I'm truly up to the challenge or not--the work is so obviously above my level...

I just don't understand why businesses would rather hire a 17 year old kid (who knows nothing and cares about even less) than an educated, responsible, and friendly 26 year old who is just down on her luck and needs a job. It makes my stomach hurt just thinking about it...

Anyway--other than the job hunt and the pervasive bitchiness--things have been good. I have loved having N around (I have a bum ticker!). We went over to my friend E's house last night for BBQ. It was great fun--the people there all got along well, even though we were from different walks of life...we sat upstairs and smoked and read Taboo cards to each other. That put me in a good mood--because I totally rock that game. I am generally good at most games, but I am so competitive, that others often hate playing with me. I need to lighten up, for sure, but most of the time, they don't want to admit to their own competitive streak--they want to blame it all on me. whatever--I know the truth!

Nothing much more to report. I'm on a budget now. I have to conserve money until I know where my next paycheck is coming from...ugh...I can feel the bitch rearing up inside of me...
I should go.

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2 Comments:

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The first step in fixing a problem is admitting that you have one.

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